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fear

Feb 27, 2008
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i am full of fear.

every second of every day i dread the loss of everything and everyone around me.

i'm fighting that fear but sometimes it overpowers all of the positive feelings that are just bubbling under the surface. and it keeps me stagnant and unable to take the bull by the horns...

i do have a positive attitude! its there i promise. i feel all of these wonderful things all the time. i feel loved. i feel beautiful. i feel like i have a wonderful future ahead of me. i feel like i have a creative mind just waiting to be exposed...

who am i answering to? who is this for? i mean...isn't this simply things i need to realize myself...say out loud...written on paper...or on the damn screen...so that i'm forced to see it. force myself to acknowledge te truth about who i am and where i am.

where am i?

and why can't i find myself?

i mean...i'm in there...come out! come out!

don't let the fucking fear take over gracie. bring the posi out to play.

inspiration and love

Jan 19, 2008
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um...i'm slightly obsessed with lists...i make them all the time and in regards to just about everything. lists make me feel good. they make me feel productive. even when i'm not being productive at all. so here's one for you...

things that make my heart beat faster:

contemporary art museums

people with outstanding fashion sense

artwork that looks like it was done by a 6yo yet really its done by an adult with an amazing sense of irony and simplistic beauty

beards

gender-queers

tourettes/aspergers

dark comedies

bondage and S&M

finding the best way to draw lips

DIY culture

nature...specifically the ocean...and mountains...the two combined is such a beautiful thing

collecting the rarest vinyl by bands that no one has ever heard of and completely obsessing over it

baking

RIOT GRRRLS

painting and sewing little girls and boys

hitchhiking and hitchhiking culture

afros

tattoos and piercings (at this point in my life...mostly excited by tattoos...and getting them...hopefully soon i will be getting them more often than i am at the moment...*sigh*)

dance parties

amazing fucking haircuts

sails-and sailboats-but mostly the sails

gin...or really good beer...and lately...a good red wine is the best thing imaginable

PAPER-i collect paper scraps and ephemera...i have three huge boxes of it in my room...and honestly there isn't much else in my room! i do use it...for art...it doesn't just sit there collecting dust

noise bands-preferably Bastard Noise-but i have been hearing a lot more lately and its so wonderful to have my ears assaulted in this way!

stuffed creatures and dolls made for adults

breakdancing

60's black chicago

the ideas and emotions associated with LUST

science fiction that challenges what i think i truly believe...such as Heinlen and Card

old friends becoming new again

baths (in claw-foot tubs)

making things with my hands

receiving gifts of items others have made with their hands

beautiful kinky sex

SHOES-seriously what would i do without a closet full of heels? it's not even like i where them!

modern architecture and prefab building

wool felt-what a beautiful tactile object felt is!

COLOR

lips

art supplies

magazines

thrift stores, estate sales, flea markets, and yard sales

manipulating my body (with yoga among other things)

i could go on...but i won't...the lists are usually never-ending though...and change frequently...